November 2016 - IVF #5, The Climb

Here we go again.  This time a little less scary.  A little less sink or swim.  Even if round 5 doesn't get us anything, with 2 embryos, the product of 10 months of advanced fertility tactics, we have a pretty decent chance of getting pregnant.  In a single-embryo transfer, we have about 30% chance with or first embryo (we're calling "Schrodinger" since we don't know if it's genetically normal or not), and about 50/50 with our round 4 normal embryo "The Lone Ranger".  Not shabby.

I suppose there could be reasons we might try a round 6 after this one...it's not written in stone that this is our last round.  I've come to know very intimately that we really don't know what we will be doing in more than 1-week to 1-month increments.  It just feels like we might try for transfer after this, regardless of what we get out of round 5, which we are finally about to start.  Don't get me wrong, I'm exceptionally hopeful we can add one more normal one to our inventory.  If we get 2, I would be thrilled and surprised, but it's not something we've been able to do yet, so I'm trying not to let myself get too excited about the chances of that happening.

I probably don't have to remind you because I've said it a dozen times...if we go toward transferring with only the two we have, we could use both of them in the same day.  Summary for those who might need a refresher, if no refresher needed, feel free to skip down:

• They plan to perform a 24hr turnaround genetic test on Schrodinger the day before transfer (after days of shots and weeks of timing to prepare).
• If S is viable, and sticks, AMAZING!
• If the test shows that S isn't a viable embryo, they will defrost and transfer TLR instead on the same day.  
• At that point, if TLR sticks, wonderful!  
• However, that will likely mean the end of my egg supply.  
• 18-24 months later, my chances of producing a good set of eggs is much less than it even is today.
• If TLR doesn't stick, or we miscarry, we are back to nothing with some big choices to make.

So, it's possible for us to use up 10 months of hard work in 24 hours.  An extra would be an amazing cushion to have.  To be able to fail with both of the ones we have, if it comes to that, and still have a shot...or, maybe, to give us a small chance at having more than 1 child.  All of this assuming no issues  or obstacles with the actual implantation / carrying a pregnancy part!  Hopefully my RE is right about my sticky uterus (see posts related to second miscarriage for reference).

So you're probably thinking, gee thanks for the review, but get on with the round 5 stuff already!  Ok...here goes.  I went in for a check on Nov 7 and all the cysts from October had resolved themselves in our month off.  A few decent looking follicles were forming, which was all good news.  The RE put me on birth control and told me to come back in 10 days.  10 days was yesterday / Wednesday morning this week.  They took their usual dose of blood, then I went to visit "Wanda"...a delightful nickname for the ultrasound machine courtesy of another friend going through the process.  Wanda showed quite a few really amazing looking <5mm follicles on my right and even more on my left...counted about a dozen of them, all sitting there ready to grow with the stims.  It also showed a big, fat, 15mm black orb on by left ovary.  Looked very much like a belligerent, dominant follicle.  Damn.

There are times when you want big follicles and times when you don't.  True to form, my ovaries are now giving me a big follicle when we DON'T want any big follicles...right now we want them all to be at the baseline level - small (<5mm), uniform, and many...NO dominant ones.  The nurse said it will mean one of two things:

1. If it's an "active" follicle, I will probably need another week of birth control pills.
2. If it's "inactive" (aka: just a cyst), we can go ahead and start the shots.

In order to tell which kind it is, we had to wait for the blood test to come back.  An "active" follicle would produce estrogen, which would show up in the test.  Thankfully, my estrogen levels came in nice and low, and I've been given the go-ahead to start shots on Sunday.  My first check will be the day before Thanksgiving and the second will be the day after.

So we start the climb again.  It's a bit like the first phase of a roller coaster...tick, tick, ticking up to the first peak as you check your harness to be extra sure you're locked in tight enough to survive the whole ride.